"I'll never understand how time can make a moment feel as close as yesterday and as far as years."
"I feel like a rock being skipped through the ocean - pain, relief, pain again, relief again, eventually destined to sink."
In the "History" chapters I loved the scenes of Theo and Griffin together. Their relationship is so cute and in the moments where I was wrapped up in how sweet it all was, I'd come up for air and feel like I had been punched in the gut when I realized that Theo was dead. I loved their moments together, from their first awkward kiss, to them coming out to their parents and getting such a positive reaction, and even the cringe-y scene of them buying condoms and Griffin's dad pops up out of nowhere, realizes what's happening, and buys the condoms for them. I was both completely entertained and embarrassed for them. Seeing these moments helped understand and be in Theo's mind more especially during the "Today" chapters where he is grieving and making not so great life choices. I found myself hating every moment of Theo and Jackson were together because I really wanted Griffin to somehow be back with Theo even if I knew it wasn't going to happen. When a book makes me feel like I am in the shoes of the current point of view than I know the writing is well done.
"I look up, and Jackson's eyes find mine. For a second, it almost feels like we're about to race into the hole to join you. Being buried alive has got to be better than whatever comes next."
I love the way Silvera wrote Griffin's OCD. Because History Is All You Left Me is mostly about Griffin dealing with his loss of Theo, I was ready for his OCD to not be such a big part of the story but there are so many moments in the book where Griffin's OCD plays such a important part in his relationship with Theo and the beginnings of his friendship with Jackson. I liked that Jackson was very accommodating towards Griffin's OCD and he adapted so easily even if they had just met.
"People are complicated puzzles, always trying to piece together a complete picture, but sometimes we get it wrong and sometimes we're left unfinished. Sometimes that's for the best. Some pieces can't be forced into a puzzle, or at least they shouldn't be, because they won't make sense."
I also love the fact that although the characters are still grieving by the end of the book, they are getting better and healthily moving forward. I like that Griffin and Wade are friends again, and I am hoping that Griffin's friendship with Jackson improves with time. After all the information each character now knows about each other but also about Theo I think it makes it easier for them to move on which is really nice to see. Especially since some of that information could keep them frozen in grief, anger, or sadness. Which is why I am happy to hear about Griffin going to therapy.
"There's nothing wrong with someone saving my life, I've realized, especially when I can't trust myself to get the job done right. People need people. That's that."